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Thinking Ahead – Previsualization of a Photograph

Photo of Watson Lake in Prescott, Arizona with storm clouds to the east and a rainbow.

A little over a year ago I was on my way to an appointment and passed Willow Lake in Prescott. I didn’t have time to stop, but the Eastern sky was dark and ominous and the sun was low above the horizon to the West. The granite formations, trees and hills surrounding the lake were lit brightly against that richly dark backdrop and I knew immediately what I wanted to do and it had nothing to do with Willow Lake.

Don’t get me wrong. I love Willow Lake and have a lot of photographs to show that I’ve spent some quality time there, but my heart belongs to another. Just east of Willow Lake is another small body of water nestled between the jutting boulders of the Granite Dells – Watson Lake. I’ve not only got plenty of photos to show my love for Watson Lake, but I find myself taking visitors there, telling tourists on the Square about it and even using it as a backdrop for portraits and engagement sessions. It’s just a beautiful treasure and with sincere apologies to Willow Lake, I love it (Now Lynx, Goldwater and Granite Lakes are all going to be jealous).

As I drove by Willow Lake that day and saw the light and the sky and the water….. my mind immediately visualized Watson Lake under the same conditions and knew I didn’t even have time to take a quick detour to see it. I had someplace to be. But, I vowed to wait for the conditions to be right and I would be prepared to create a panorama of the vision I now had locked in my head.

Last week it happened. We were in the middle of monsoon and thunderstorms rolled in and out every day. Some in the mornings, but most in the afternoon. We’d get a little rain now and then, but in the distance you could hear the low grumbling of thunder beyond the hills. Sometimes you could see the storm to the West of Thumb Butte, or South, up in the pines, but that Monday evening, as I got ready to grill some chicken breasts, it was due East…… and the sun was starting to get lower in the Western sky.

Turning the grill off, I tossed my camera bag and tripod into the car as quickly as I could and headed out. I turned at the Square on Gurley Street toward the junction where 69 and 89 split and I headed up 89, passing the Veteran’s Hospital at old Fort Whipple. As I pulled into the park and reached into my pocket to pay the attendant I groaned. “Oh great…..” the attendant overheard me say to myself, “I ran off so fast I forgot to bring any cash.” I was dejected. You never know how long a particular set of weather and lighting conditions will last. “Why not just drive on up as my guest today?” it was more of a statement than a question. I’m sure my face brightened up as quickly as lightning traverses the clouds. “Thank you! I really appreciate it!” You gotta love this town.

Parking at the top of the hill overlooking the lake, I quickly unloaded, walked the short distance to the overlook I wanted and set up. The first set of shots I took were just to make sure I got something in the camera that had some of the elements in my head – mainly the dark Eastern sky. The sun, just over my shoulder, was hidden behind a cloud. After getting the first shots in the can, I waited……

I could hear geese honking occasionally from the boulder they were sitting on in the midst of the water. Cloud to ground lightning flashed to the Southeast. It seemed like minutes passed before the low rumble of thunder followed. Using my other camera I tried to capture a bird of prey as it wheeled silently over the dells and the water. The wind tugged at my hair and water lapped against the rocks below. I closed my eyes and pulled in a deep breath, then let it out slowly. As I opened my eyes sunlight began to creep across the hills to the East. Another round of photos covering the North end of the lake to the south. I gazed at the San Francisco Peaks just outside Flagstaff to the Northeast. More sunlight on the hills as the Dells on the far side of the lake began to light up. Another round of photos. If only the near side Dells, where I stood, would come out of shadow, then my near foreground and the hills across the lake would all stand out bright against the dark backdrop of the storm. After waiting a bit longer the foreground boulders also lit up and I began taking several shots spanning the lake from North to South to be stitched together into one impressive panorama later. As an added bonus, a rainbow decided to drop in behind the hills across the lake. Welcome, friend….

So, how closely do they match – the panoramas I created and the vision in my head? Meh, not bad. All of the elements were there, but not quite in the right configuration. In my head the lake is full and the storm spans the entire Eastern sky. On that day the lake was down quite a bit and the sky to the Northeast was fairly clear as the storm kept moving away to the Southeast and it wasn’t quite as dark as when I first saw it. Am I disappointed that I didn’t get the shot I want? Nope. I enjoyed every minute of the hour or more that I was out there and I got closer than I would have if I’d stayed home and barbeque’d some chicken. And the vision is still there. It’ll happen, but the vision is a bit revised now. There are a couple of new elements.

One day, on some afternoon or evening in the future, I’ll hear thunder in the distance. I’ll run outside and look up to see a massive storm front to the East. When I arrive at the lake I’ll have a pass that allows me to drive in without having to pay. As I set up, I’ll look out to see the lake as full as I’ve ever seen it. Sunlight will flood the distant hills and you’ll be able to see the rain falling in the distance beyond the first new element – the finished shot needs a rainbow. Don’t know why I didn’t think of that before. As I click through the shots, panning from North to South the other new element will come into play. Lightning! I can’t wait…….

Don’t Hire Me

Fuzzy image of clock to illustrate concept of time - By Arizona Photographer, Carlos Benjamin

What??? Yep. You read the title correctly. I’m asking people not to hire me.

A little over three years ago I started experiencing a cognitive disconnect. I wasn’t able to think through problems like I had been. My thoughts were becoming fuzzier all the time and I was finding it more and more difficult to read. When I would attend a technical class it was as if my brain would fill up and the instructor would spout nonsense. I told someone on the phone today that it was like they were speaking another language, and sometimes it was like that, but more often than not it was just a jumble of English words that made no sense to me.

Eventually it got to the point that I was let go from my day job because I was just sitting in front of my computer and unable to think about how I should go about the tasks I’d been assigned. On the last project I completed there I had accused one of the other employees of not giving me the information I needed to complete the task. Thinking back on it I’m guessing I wasn’t really communicating what it was I needed.

About the same time there was a miscommunication regarding some of my package prices for weddings and what they included. I was also finding it more and more difficult to do post-processing on images. On rare occasions my cameras seemed foreign to me as I tried to figure out what settings to use for a given situation. I thought I was losing my mind.

Cut to today. I’ve seen neurologists, psychiatrists and a neuropsychologist as well as a host of other doctors. We haven’t been able to pin this thing down. After a series of tests, the neuropsychologist concluded that I was brilliant but that I just couldn’t process data. I had always wanted to be brilliant. Too bad I didn’t get an official assessment of my brilliance until my brain broke down. Both the psychiatrist and the neuropsychologist agree that this most likely has a physiological cause, but that’s as far as we’ve gotten to date.

So, why am I putting this out here for the world to see? A couple of reasons. I get asked all the time, “How’s the photography business going?” by people who know I’m not otherwise working. I think I’ll have some cards printed up with a copy of the URL for this post and just hand them out when asked.

More pertinent though is the fact that I stopped blogging because I wasn’t actively photographing clients. The purpose of the blog, in my mind, was to show my work and talk about working with my clients. When I stopped pursuing jobs, I stopped writing about it.

Recently though, a fellow photographer was involved in an accident that left him bed-fast for the next few months (at least). David DuChemin is a well-known photographer whose work I admire and whose career I’d been keeping tabs on, albeit loosely – primarily because it’s difficult for me to read much beyond a paragraph or maybe two if they’re short.

Anyway, David’s blog was kind of silent for a bit after the accident, but not for long. Still laid up in the hospital and on some pretty serious pain meds, David began to reach out to his friends and admirers through twitter and his blog. An entry about a week ago just really resonated with me. David basically talked about the downside of his injury and hospital stay. The downside? Yeah. David is usually a pretty upbeat kind of guy and had been telling friends on the phone and via twitter that he was, “Living the dream”. I mean, we all knew he was in a great deal of pain, but this time he just talked about it awhile. He was keeping it real.

After reading the post I thought to myself, “David’s not out there making photographs right now and he still blogs.”

Then I remembered that one of my goals when starting this blog was to be open and transparent, so people could feel like they knew me without ever having met me. So that clients would have a comfort level with me before hiring me. What was I doing just letting the blog gather dust then? I’m still me. And I hope one day to have this problem resolved and go back to having clients and building a business around the art of photography. Until then, I can still write about where I am and what progress I’m making.

So, here I am. I’m back. If anyone besides spammers were aware of the blog before it’s a mystery to me. In dusting this thing off I had to clean house a little. Over 2,500 comments were awaiting moderation. After a hundred or so grammatically terrible pats on the back for my wonderful insights, “…and won’t you please post my spam link in your comments…” I just started deleting them wholesale (well, 20 at a time). Some I marked as spam, but since I couldn’t read them all I thought that might be bad if there was a real commenter who was marked as a spammer. If I did that to any real people, I apologize.

I will second shoot for other wedding photographers for now, because I don’t have to do anything but show up, photograph the day and then send the images to the primary photographer. Other than that…. product photography where I can have the product for a few days and set up lights and reflectors and gobos to create a nice tableau. That’s it. I’m always open to do some fun-tography as my buddy Dan Coogan likes to call it.

At any rate, I plan to post progress reports and my thoughts in general as well as non-client images from time to time. So, stay tuned.

The Old Website Is Dead. Long Live The New Website

Mistress Of The Forge II - Image copyright by Arizona based Photographer, Carlos Benjamin - BenjPhoto.com

Thanks for bearing with me for the last couple of days. This past Monday I irrevocably destroyed my web page so that I could rebuild it and make it a much better experience for those who visit. Yes, I did it for you, if you’re reading this (I can assure you that I did not do it for me – it has been a pain!).

The site isn’t done yet. There are still a number of pages to add, including:

  • A page listing venues for weddings
  • A page listing other wedding vendors I’ve been impressed by (recommendations)
  • A page for photographers
  • A page to help people know how to choose a Photographer
  • Some new blog posts (ongoing)

The venue page will be broken down by city (Phoenix, Gilbert, Chandler, Scottsdale, Prescott, Chino Valley, etc) and will feature images from the venues with links to their websites. The vendor page will also contain some images and links to websites.

The photographer page will host a separate blog with reviews of gear and tips

There will be some free reports available upon request for those thinking of hiring a photographer. The reports will be specific to a particular type of photography (Family, Children, Wedding, etc)

Blog posts? Well, I had stopped posting on the old site because I was trying to get this one ready. The only problem with that was that it took far longer than I had anticipated. So, two days ago I destroyed my webpage and decided to go with a template to see if I could create one myself and here we are. The last three days have been pretty bumpy, but things should just get better and better as we go along.

Why Photography Is Important

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I thought I’d start the posts on the new (and hopefully improved) BenjPhoto blogsite by posting a favorite from the old site. I’m not going to repost everything from the old site, but this one helps to sum up my philosophy about photograpy. The original was posted on April 29th of 2008 (in internet time, that’s ancient). Enjoy!

The following is something I shared with a group of friends, fellow wedding photographers, on a wedding photography forum yesterday. It was so well received that I decided to post it here as well.

I was shooting an e-session this past weekend at the Mesa Arts Center with my pastor’s daughter, Christine and her fiance, Christian. The place has this fabulous blue wall that I love to use as a background element and all kinds of nifty water features.

We were taking these shots at one of the water features when I glimpsed some movement coming into frame right (albeit out of focus).

Quickly refocusing I saw that the movement was this little guy (below). He dropped in with lunch and just wanted a drink, so I snap a shot with him as the center of attention.

Christine and Christian: E-Session

…and then the bird flies away.

Christine and Christian: E-Session

It’s at this point that I think, “That’s why I do this…… To catch fleeting moments that will never be just so again. These two people; this place and time of day; this little bird……”

How often you hear stories about loved ones who’ve died and what comfort the photos bring to the family, or sadder still when they pass on and the thought is, “We were going to get some photos done…..” I’d been talking with someone about getting a shot of the various members of their family for some time and one day one of them was, like this bird, no longer there. Gone……

Have you ever seen a movie where someone suffers the loss of a loved one and they interact with a photo on the nightstand, drawing it close and examining the features, tracing them with a finger and then embracing it? Sure you have. Maybe some of you have actually interacted with photos in that way.

It’s not just the passing of loved ones that may trigger this emotional connection to our art. Moms might sit on the side of the bed holding a photo of a son or daughter who’s left home for college or a job in a distant place. Parents look back at photos of their children when they were younger and you see a trace of a smile at the corners of their mouth and a faint twinkle in the eye.

There’s a reason why we hear about people dragging the family photos out of a burning or flooding home – sometimes even risking their lives. I can’t picture someone racing back into a burning house to rescue the frozen wedding cake or tearfully tracing the edges of the caterer’s menu.

This may sound maudlin or sappy or even self-serving, but as important as they may be to the whole experience, I just don’t see the other things folks spend money on to make their wedding day “special” being able to have the same impact over time as our images and albums.

That’s why I think that what we do as photographers is important.